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[02 Apr 2006|05:55pm] |
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Well, it's been awhile, well, FOREVER, since I've updated, so here goes-
1) College? Well, I've been accepted at UW (not honors, though), Seattle University, Occidental (hooray!), and waitlisted at Pitzer. Occidental = top choice. Occidental also = very very expensive. Jeri= determined to go and work her ass off to go there. So suck on that, money. Ha.
2) Spring Break? Yes. I am on it. Too bad GU isn't. I have to go to German many many times. That's okay though, I love German.
3) Senior Year? IS ALMOST OVER! Words cannot describe my elation.
4) Boys? Are not in Spokane. Those that are = dumb.
5) Exercise? Why, yes. I've started exercising almost every day and I feel so much better. Amazing. Jogging = effective but not my favorite. Yoga still places first.
6) Anything else? Nope, but I'm definetely not going to Germany this summer. No money. And if I go to Occidental? Well, REALLY no money. Oh wells. Deutschland muss immer noch warten, bis ich weider komme. Aber wenn ich das schaffe, wird es bestimmt eine geile Zeit.
So take that.
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[04 Mar 2006|02:34pm] |
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Beh.
I now present an interview with myself:
How am I?
Not as well as I could be, but okay.
How was BC for the 3rd?
Good, well, more like amazing. Not to mention hilarious.
How is school?
It kind of sucks balls.
How is your motivation?
Absent.
Any relationship news?
That's a funny joke.
Are you currently on a replacement hormone?
Yes.
Does it give you "symptoms of pregnancy" despite your not being pregnant?
Yup.
How does it feel?
I'll be adopting in the future, that's all I can say.
Are you ready to graduate?
Are YOU ready to graduate? Of course I am. I was born ready.
Any gossip at Prep?
That's worth hearing? Ha.
Any last words?
Driver's Ed is full of stupid people.
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| The life of a showman |
[19 Feb 2006|11:41am] |
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I realized today, that I am sick.
I am sick of music. I am sick of everything having to do with music. Sick of the politics, the rigorous schedules, the exteme personalities, everything. I want out. I have played some sort of musical instrument for the past 11 years and I am fucking SICK of being a musician. I don't want private lessons anymore. I don't want to be in SYO. I don't want to play solos. I don't want to play in a quintet, trio, quartet, or woodwind ensemble. I don't want to be 1st horn assistant anymore. I don't want to give up 3 hours of my free time every Monday night. I don't want anything to do with music right now. I want to listen and enjoy it, but I don't want to make it myself. Not right now.
The good thing is that I can always come back to it, should I want. That's a comfort.
Right now? Right now I want to explore. I'm young and I have plenty of time. Why shouldn't I be allowed to explore my personal intrests? I want to learn Russian, Czech, Latvian, Estonian, Polish...I want to learn languages that will challenge me and frustrate me every step of the way. I want to learn languages that are largely overlooked. I don't want practical. I want what I want. I want to take photographs. I want to paint. I want to learn how to sew. How to draw realistic human faces. To dance. To do advanced yoga. To study World War II. To cook like a professional. To become more than just a "friend". To drive on freeways. To cross country ski. To speak Italian. To speak French. To speak any language outside of English and German. To read. To write. To break out.
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| Leck mich am Arsch, Arbeitsblatt Nummer vier! |
[16 Feb 2006|02:24pm] |
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And now for the news:
* I have started Driver's Ed. I hate it. I also hate driving. Hate it. I've had nightmares about out of control cars since I was about 5, and I have had several unpleasant experiences involving cars. So. Driving can suck it. Even if I actually survive to get my license, I dobut I'll ever actually utilize it. Me and steering wheels do not mix.
* 5 day weekend. Lord be praised.
* German. I am kicking this language's ass. Every day. Kicking it so hard. I heart German.
* I like Iceland.
* Valentine's Day was alright, albeit boring. My mother decided I don't have a boyfriend due to a hormonal imbalance, and that I am "sending out all the wrong smells." I almost peed myself laughing.
* I also heart photography.
* I also also heart yoga.
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| Don't shake just balance on the fence |
[23 Jan 2006|08:53pm] |
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Well, senioritis has set in, full and heavy.
Plus I feel sick. I'm sick of feeling sick. I've felt sick almost every day of this past week. It's mot a sick that's bad enough that it can keep me home, it's just sick enough that I feel miserable but am still able to drag myself through the day.
But I guess I honestly don't mind. I'm in love with life right now, and nothing is going to deter me from that. I have reasons to be sad and distressed, but I'm not going to let that happen. I feel good about the future right now. I am so ready to go to college.
I miss my independence so much.
In Germany I could go anywhere in Europe. Anywhere. All I had to do was hop on a train and go. I'd be gone. I managed my own time. I became entirely self-reliant, in so many ways. I didn't need a fucking car, or a fucking drivers license, I didn't need to be driven all around the city like a toddler, my parents didn't feel the need to coddle me...god forbid, I even attended co-ed sleepovers and drank alcohol. And whatever happened as a result of those choices I made reflected on only one person. Me.
And I loved it. I want out. I am done. Finished. I am going to finish this year strong, leave this city, and be glad to be away.
As much as I love my friends, I also love the feeling of starting over. In a place where I don't know anyone. I thrive on that feeling of being completely alone. It's a sense of fear mixed with determination, a sense of adventure mixed with excitement. I want that back. I want to be at least semi-alone again.
I'm ready for a new start. Ich bin bereit, und ich freue mich darauf.
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| Complainy Mcplainy pants |
[15 Jan 2006|11:22am] |
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This part of the weekend was brought to you buy: angst, finals stress, U2, and your friendly ill gallbladder.
Yesterday was not a very good day. At all. Yes.
Yoga is, however, one of the best things ever.
I have nothing to really look forward to over the next week. Good.
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| hmm |
[13 Dec 2005|05:31pm] |
The past few days have not been especially exciting or disturbing, I just seem to be getting through school by the skin of my teeth.
I don't have lupus, thank God. We don't know what I have. I don't like it.
Christmas excites me.
I miss Germany SOOOOOO much right now- the people, the places, the trains, the Wehinachtsmaerkte...und ich will weider dahin. Oh yeah, and there are very few things I WOULDN'T give up to go and shop at H&M for a few hours.
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[28 Nov 2005|08:32pm] |
I am this close <--> to finishing my UW of application...so close....
I am very bloated today.
My stomach is very angry.
I have to eat a radioactive sandwhich on the 8th of December.
Um, um, um, um. okay.
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| Wow, tis been 4 years |
[11 Sep 2005|05:55pm] |
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This college search thing isn't working, at all. Its too bad I'm open to everything. I need to start getting bitchier and more opinionated...
So I definetely fell of my bike today. It wasn't bad, no, it was glorious, actually. Like, I've never felt more sexy in my life than sweaty and with a bleeding chin/hands. Amazing.
...
Hmm.
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| Blah blah blah |
[30 Aug 2005|09:45pm] |
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Kicking the ass of my computer and mp3 player at the same time. It's going down, bitches.
You should all come see my impressive array of artists...all the way from 50 Cent to The White Stripes, I've even got some old school Wu-Tang Clan thrown in there. That's right. No haters allowed.
Uh...not much else to say. I only got 1 hour of sleep last night. ...uh, cool.
This entry is pretty much a lost cause.
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| I'm leaving on a jet plane, don't know when I |
[30 Jul 2005|12:58pm] |
Satori proved yet again to be one of the most amazing and satisfying weeks of my entire life.
I wish I could make a nice and coherent entry that would actually be capable of fowarding some of my true thoughts to you guys, but I have to go pack right now.
I'll be back August 3rd.
When does school start?
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| I am refreshingly bitchy today |
[21 Jul 2005|09:03am] |
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Look, I'm having yet another fat day.
Funny how those happen...every day...of every week.
Its that time again, I get to have senior pictures done, excitement? I'm not feeling it. My stomach is burning and I'm exhuasted.
To Maggie- I love you and hope for the best in regards to you and your family. Just know that I'm there for you, any time of day...even if we haven't seen eachother in ages.
Leaving for D.C. Sunday, hopefully my favorite time of the month won't decide to visit me suddenly while I sit in the airplane (after it hadn't visited for what, an entire fucking year?), because then the pilots will have a REAL big security problem on their hands.
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| ICH KOMME AUS HAMBURG |
[30 Jun 2005|05:56am] |
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Welcome back to America, kid.
Total hours gone without sleep: 36
Total hours in airplanes: 17
Total time zones crossed: 3
Total number of flights missed: 2
Total hours waiting in airports: around 10 hours
Expected arrival time: 10:30 pm, June 28th
Actual arrival time: 10:30 am, June 29th
I fucking hate airplanes, airlines, and Dulles International Airport.
Washington D.C. can kiss my ass, what a fuck-ugly city.
I wish I could say I feel better after sleeping for 17 straight hours, but I'm still pissed.
Saying goodbye was harder than expected. Dammit.
This entry sounds incredibly bitter. Maybe not being able to smell myself will help change that.
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| Es geht jetzt ab! |
[31 May 2005|06:37pm] |
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And...
OFF to Prague!
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[18 May 2005|10:19am] |
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Interesting things. Happened.
Here are some Googlisms...some of them are particularly funny.
jeri is not stuck in vegas
jeri is an award winning artist who works in pencil
jeri is an actress with a heavenly stellar body
jeri is jini extensible remote invocation
jeri is a subclass of jeri
jeri is also a past chairperson of the homecare alliance of maine
jeri is in this month's instyle magazine
jeri is special
jeri is a beautiful little two year old girl who came to live at our house when she was two days old
jeri is suddenly the one being chased as kumbhiramon reappears
jeri is still talking about the inferiority of humans
jeri is still out of it
jeri is married to jack ryan with a son alex
jeri is afraid cody will kill ted; she runs off
jeri is da bomb
jeri is extremely sexy
jeri is transported back seventy years to a magical time when the black cloud of the great depression was just beginning to swoop over america
jeri is a healing touch practitioner who lives in oakland
jeri is very helpful and will answer any questions you might have
jeri is frightened since she knows cody will just kill ted so she rushes off to save ted
And that's enough pointless shit for now.
I'm embarrassed and my head hurts. And why is it impossible for me to go back to sleep after being woken up once? Is that a healthy thing or a bad thing? You see, I'm really not entirely sure. I mean, maybe it means I'm like super-alert crazy cool kid of destiny or maybe it means that my body is just weird. I'm tending to lean towards the second option.
Time to eat more fattening German foods.
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| To whom it may concern |
[20 Mar 2005|11:13pm] |
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Ach ja.
Das Leben ist schön, und momentan kann es nur schöner werden.
I feel like talking. Talking and typing. And writing down some of the things I've learned in the past few months.
THINGS I'VE LEARNED:
-Running/jogging isn't bad
-Getting up early ísn't bad
-Shopping is pleasing
-Telling people things right away instead of beating around the bush is beneficial
-I am not a party person
-I am addicted to buying underwear
-I feel good when I can be indepedent
-The relationships you have are the most valuable to you
-You don't realize what you have until its gone
-Love is an international language
-There are a lot of ugly shoes out there
-I'm insecure about a lot of things
-I try to please people too often
-I need to stand up for myself more
-Judging people isn't worth it
-Chocolate attacks are okay
-Live life to the fullest
-Be strong
Yup. I want other people to post what they've learned these past few months. Let's see some life lessons, kids. Post this in your journal with your answers...maybe I'll start a new trend.
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| Ach ja. |
[12 Mar 2005|11:39am] |
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Thank you, Germany, for helping me to be come vain and addicted to shopping.
But seriously, kids.
I have the coolest bra ever. It excites me.
Kind of sad that I have nothing more to say.
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| Yup. |
[27 Feb 2005|10:37am] |
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The Pixies- Where is my Mind? |
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Life is an interesting place.
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